Every day I think of you and I have a big hole in my heart where that hurt so much and will never be repaired. I see people with their children and grandchildren and know I will never see you again. What I would give to just have 1 second with you to have a memory because I still have no memory of holding you but the memory of you after you died in the hospital. I hope one day to be able to have memories of until that day there will this hole. Happy Christmas I hope you have fun with the angels. I will always love you Ava xxxxxxxx